Sunday, March 16, 2003

good morning. erm, i don know how to start. i'm confused. i don know if i still like her all of a sudden. i guess i'm tried. asked her out the day before, she didnt wan to. asked her out yesterdae, she didnt wan to. asked her out todae, she didnt wan to. shld i ask her out tml? hmmm, haven seen her for almost two weeks liao. so i think i can just get used to it. everyone that we know tell me not to give up on us, i don know if i shld or not. maybe its better. u thinking of me this nights means u still like me or just that u cant forget me? its been one month and seventeen daes liao. i'm tired and scared at the same time. i remember the time when u kept me out of yur life, not answering my calls and sms, den switching off yur phone, all the while i know u are out with someone who is potentially dangerous coz his cousin tried to do something to u. den the next i know is that u wan a breakup. if u can do this to me once, i think it can happen twice. hey, i know i asked for breakup before, but i never meant it before, all the times were when i was angry. u are right when u said if we are together again, u are afraid we might breakup again. it will only happen if u wan to breakup with me. i'm tired liao, sorry jas.

i give up.

shld i?

i give up, knowing that if i hear u say u still like me, i try to win u back again.
but i back out for now.

not yur fault jas, don be sorry. theres nothing i can do to make u happy again. i cant comfort u like we used to do, cant caress yur hair without u pushing me away. heh, u make urself happy k? not all yur frens make u happy ma. don eat so much, k? bad for ur stomach if u are always this full. enjoy yur squash later and jiayou for yur homework.

yesterdae was the cycling trip. it was fun, guess i have to tell u all another dae, got to go for work liao.

this morning woke up in tears, guess i cried in my dream, stupid dream lo. dreamt of a few pp i didnt like. screamed at them i think. good and bad things of dreaming. let u do the things u wan to and let u see the things u don wan to. hmmm, they say u dream wat u think or see in the day, think its rather true. been dreaming of a special someone. all the good old times. wonder when this dreams will stop. hey, mel, thanxs for chatting sometimes ya, though i don know u for long, but u are a special fren to me. maybe becoz we are in the same boat. i think i know wat to do abt the 'u know wat'. i won give up breaking yet. see u ard soon.

take care pp.

peace out \/

just thankful to be alive - bert =o)
gilbert at 5:57 PM [comment]

{I hear voices, voices only half as humane as mine..}